Monday, November 23, 2009

Two very special 6's today:

As of today, I have two very special 6's to announce. :) My oldest little man turned 6 today, and we got an email that we're #6 on the waiting list for our little princess! Yee Haw! :)

Headed into Thanksgiving with a definite heart of Thanksgiving! God is so faithful to paint a beautiful picture out of our lives. Sometimes it is just not the picture we thought it would be, and its not painted in our expected timeframe... :)

I've finally come out of my season of moping, or self-centered depression, or whatever you want to call it. I had about 6 months of glass is half-full thinking. Thankfully the Lord has helped me see my way out of the pit, and I now see the amazing things that make my life full, instead of just focusing on what I perceive as missing.

When I challenged myself to do a real, in-depth look at what I was struggling with that was keeping me down, I found a TON of useful stuff that God used to knock me upside the head. The main thing I found was that when I studied 'being content' or 'contentedness'- I found that some translations of scripture use the word 'agreement' in the place of 'content with'. I thought that was very interesting- and upon prayer and reflection, I realized that I was not in agreement with what God had been doing in my life, and I started to resent it and struggle with it selfishly.

I end up looking at Job losing almost everything and Paul while he was in prison. If they can be content, why can't I see my way out of my suburban, middle class, fully-fed, fully-clothed PIT? (Whatever, Sarah... Sometimes I can be such a schmuck!)

So, in repentance and rest I have re-found my salvation. (READ: Isaiah 30:15
This is what the Sovereign LORD, the Holy One of Israel, says: "In repentance and rest is your salvation, in quietness and trust is your strength, but you would have none of it.) Yes, that's right friends. I would have NONE of it. Instead of repentance and rest, I chose selfishness and busyness. Not wise.

But, I'm back. The mud is out of my eyes and heart and I'm pressing on. Hang in there friends, whether it's an actual hard season, or just a bout of selfish pouting. God can and will walk you through to the other side.

9 comments:

jasonliberty said...

so happy for your double 6's :-) Thank you for the uplifting message! I really needed reminded to be content and wait on the Lord :-)

Liberty

jasonliberty said...

so happy for your double 6's :-) Thank you for the uplifting message! I really needed reminded to be content and wait on the Lord :-)

Liberty

Peter and Nancy said...

I think we've all had times where we flailed around, wondering "why" or "when" . . . I admire how you wrestled with God and found your way out of the pit. Just in time for Thanksgiving!

-- Nancy
(waiting right behind you, I found out yesterday!)

Traci said...

Thank you for that post. I needed those reminders today. Praying for you as you wait - Traci G. (who was #6 when we rec'd our referral ;)

Four..and ONE from India said...

Happy Six to you!! Happy that you have moved up and so glad we could help that!! Thanks for the uplifting message and for telling the truth about your victory!! Great family picture!! :) Gidget
(Waiting for Maiya and loving life)

SarahinCO said...

OK Traci. You're totally freaking me out! Not something I had considered as a possibility! AHHH! :)

Kristi W. said...

Sarah- congrats on your 6's. I love how you just put your struggles out there. It takes so much strength to do that and you are inspiring to me! :)

p.s. We were #9 when we received Shaili's referral, and #12 when we received Daya's...you never know what's going to happen. Especially when God is in control!

:)Kristi W.

The Pfeiffer Family said...

Congratulations on moving up to #6 and Happy Birthday to your son.

I appreciate your honesty in this post. It is easy to fall into discontentment, especially when things are not going according to our plans. I am thankful that HE has led you out of your difficult time and am looking forward to seeing how HIS plan unfolds.

Something that I remind myself of often is that God sees the WHOLE picture, while I only see a sliver of it. That sliver can be SO frustrating at times, but I must rest in the fact that HE knows how it will all play out and I need to be patient.

Have a great Thanksgiving! We all have SO much to be thankful for.

April (mommy to Alesha!)

Terra said...

Say a Happy Birthday to Andy from us! We are so excited that little Miss Jacob is closer to coming! :) God's timing is perfect and I'm glad that you have found your way into contentment/agreement with God. Love you!