Friday, February 29, 2008

Type 1 Diabetes...

well. i'm honestly still in shock. not much to blog about at this point. hopefully later, i'll be in a better frame of mind, more rested, less overwhelmed, etc...

the only thing I can comment on so far, is how my heart broke at the bank when the teller offered Andy a sucker and I said, "No, he can't have one." Andy started to cry. My eyes filled up too.

i'm so broken.

my deepest prayer is that God heals him completely. That this "honeymoon" period, where he hardly needs any insulin, would be the beginning of walking away from this ugly disease.

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Pics of the kids

Need I say anything? This picture TOTALLY cracks me up.
We're showing this one to his wife someday...
Sarah goes a bit dark.
My reward to myself for losing the 30lbs of long-overdue baby weight
was to do something fun to my hair.

I call this one, the "Lion-o-saur."
This photo pretty much sums up my 4 year old.

Big hat, no cattle; but sooo cute.

Big brother showing little brother how to do the playdough thing... What I can't believe is that I have two kids old enough to play with playdough!

Could he be more proud? "All by myself" - with only minimal yogurt spillage...

What are you doing, Jesus?

Do you ever just want to ask him that?

"What are you doing, Jesus?"

That's where I am this morning. I've been really sensitive to the spirit this last week- to the point of tears when reading things and just feeling like I'm hearing him more clearly than in the immediate past. I'm grateful, for sure. but also feeling a little bewildered.

I wish I could sit with Christ and have a cup of coffee, tea, whatever... and just chat. Instead of the usual accountability "What is God doing in your life?" question though, I'd ask, "What is God doing in my life?" and listen intently for Jesus' answer...

I'm so blessed to have a relationship with God where I do hear him and long to have those coffee chat moments... I just get caught up in the wanting to know. When I should be caught up in the "knowing" of the most High God. The Lord of the universe!

Once again, I found myself in the car last night with "Find me tonight" playing over and over again (see below in January for the words to the song).

"You speak without sound.
Your love is so loud.
You always save me."

And thanks Josh for your post...
“Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me, a sinner.”

Resounds in my spirit as well...