Monday, November 23, 2009

Two very special 6's today:

As of today, I have two very special 6's to announce. :) My oldest little man turned 6 today, and we got an email that we're #6 on the waiting list for our little princess! Yee Haw! :)

Headed into Thanksgiving with a definite heart of Thanksgiving! God is so faithful to paint a beautiful picture out of our lives. Sometimes it is just not the picture we thought it would be, and its not painted in our expected timeframe... :)

I've finally come out of my season of moping, or self-centered depression, or whatever you want to call it. I had about 6 months of glass is half-full thinking. Thankfully the Lord has helped me see my way out of the pit, and I now see the amazing things that make my life full, instead of just focusing on what I perceive as missing.

When I challenged myself to do a real, in-depth look at what I was struggling with that was keeping me down, I found a TON of useful stuff that God used to knock me upside the head. The main thing I found was that when I studied 'being content' or 'contentedness'- I found that some translations of scripture use the word 'agreement' in the place of 'content with'. I thought that was very interesting- and upon prayer and reflection, I realized that I was not in agreement with what God had been doing in my life, and I started to resent it and struggle with it selfishly.

I end up looking at Job losing almost everything and Paul while he was in prison. If they can be content, why can't I see my way out of my suburban, middle class, fully-fed, fully-clothed PIT? (Whatever, Sarah... Sometimes I can be such a schmuck!)

So, in repentance and rest I have re-found my salvation. (READ: Isaiah 30:15
This is what the Sovereign LORD, the Holy One of Israel, says: "In repentance and rest is your salvation, in quietness and trust is your strength, but you would have none of it.) Yes, that's right friends. I would have NONE of it. Instead of repentance and rest, I chose selfishness and busyness. Not wise.

But, I'm back. The mud is out of my eyes and heart and I'm pressing on. Hang in there friends, whether it's an actual hard season, or just a bout of selfish pouting. God can and will walk you through to the other side.