Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Friends dealing with Infertility

I'm really burdened today with the thought of my friends that are battling with infertility. I was told in 2000 that I probably had PolyCystic Ovarian Disease - but that I wouldn't know for sure until I tried to start having kids.

Well, 7 years, 1 miscarriage and 2 kids later (all conceived within 6 months of trying)- I guess I don't have it.

I did have a huge battle with fear and trusting God through trying to get pregnant with both though... It is a huge inward battle. But ultimately it is God who allows both ends to meet in order for a baby to be formed.

Friends: Know that I'm praying for you. I'm praying for your heart to trust that God knows what He is doing. He is able to overcome anything that a doctor has told you- but he is also able to soften your heart to believe and hope for His ultimate plan and timing.

I also encourage you to seek Him and allow Him to grow you in all other areas while you wait. My main struggle right now with 2 kids is trying to stay in the Spirit as I walk out my daily life. It is a rare day when I don't feel like I'm going to pull my hair out trying to stay calm while 2 kids scream, cry, throw fits and food, and suck all of my 'free time' and energy out of me.

So often I want to just run away for a few hours and have silence and peace. But, I'm realizing that peace is not JUST the absence of conflict- it's the presence of God. I want THAT more than anything- screaming babies or not. :)

Hang on. He IS able, more than able...

Sing it if you need to:

He is able, more than able, to accomplish what concerns me today. He is able, more than able, to handle anything that comes my way. He is able, more than able, to do much more than I could ever dream. He is able, more than able, to make me what He wants me to be. (maranatha song)

Thursday, January 25, 2007

Trying this again today...

Well, I thought I'd try this again today. Yesterday the pictures wouldn't load. I don't know if its my pop up blocker (which I disabled) or the spyware or something- but it wouldn't work.
Yup. Still won't work. Any help?

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

Ok- So I don't do this very often!

Ok. It's a Wednesday and I'm homebound. Both boys had fevers yesterday- so I'm here playing nurse until tonight when Steve gets home and I can flee the premisis...

Steve and I had a great discussion about our nation last night after watching the State of the Union Address. We're both ready for people to take responsibility for their own actions - and stop blaming or waiting on the government to fix life for them. If CEO's make too much- you need to buy stock in that company- and then contact the board and have the shareholders and board do something about it... not have the government regulate all businesses because you don't make what the CEO of that company makes...

I am hoping that there will be some sort of regulation of the health care industry though. I'm wondering if someday we'll be paying more for health insurance than we do for the mortgage! I sat at the eye doctor's office for 1.5 hours the other day while 2 different secretaries had to call and get put on hold regarding exactly which page of their 3 inch notebook they were supposed to refer to regarding my EXACT eye care coverage! And, after all that, they ended up guessing how much to charge me! Can't wait to wrestle with the insurance company over that later... Couldn't the insurance companies and the eye doctors save tons of time and money to just pick a price that is agreeable between them- and use it... they'd save a ton on labor and time.

It also irks me that there are people in our country who might blame the president (of all people!) on these types of issues. Do they not think that he has more important things to do?

Anyway- a little cabin-feverish today (if you can't tell)- and I'm ready to pick a fight with all the 'why me' americans. :)