I started thinking about the sermon that was preached at our church on Sunday and thought I'd process while I type- and send it into cyberspace for contemplation. It was on Abraham and Sarah- and on the hope that we could be like Abraham where we would become unwaivering in our devotion to God. When the speaker started in on this point, he reminded us that earlier in Abraham's history and walk with God, he brazenly bargained with God on something... when God was going to destroy Sodom. Instead of Abraham saying 'Yes, Lord,' or just standing by while God did His thing, Abraham bargained with God over and over (Genesis 18- and honestly it sounds to me like Abraham was on the Price is Right... REALLY pushing it with God.)
22 The men turned away and went toward Sodom, but Abraham remained standing before the LORD. 23 Then Abraham approached him and said: "Will you sweep away the righteous with the wicked? 24 What if there are fifty righteous people in the city?...
26 The LORD said, "If I find fifty righteous people in the city of Sodom, I will spare the whole place for their sake."
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32 Then he said, "May the Lord not be angry, but let me speak just once more. What if only ten can be found there?"
He answered, "For the sake of ten, I will not destroy it."
33 When the LORD had finished speaking with Abraham, he left, and Abraham returned home.
But yet later, when God asked Abraham to sacrifice his only son- Abraham didn't argue, didn't plead, he got his son and some firewood and headed for the mountain...
WHAT?
As you read further in the story, you see that Abraham says to his servants as he's about to head up the mountain with Isaac 'WE will worship and then WE will come back to you (ch 22).' I see that you could look at this as if Abraham is not wanting to point out to others that he's going to go sacrifice his son- OR you could see it through his eyes of faith- that 2 will go up and 2 will come down... that GOD WILL PROVIDE...
So, I internalize this story a bit and think about this adoption we're in the midst of... Why should I doubt that God is going to provide not only the finances to get us through the 'process of adoption' but also the heart, love, home, and ability to parent all of our children to His glory... of course He will.
My prayer is that I'm able to remain in this place of hope and faith with God- and not go back to bargaining and questioning Him. :)
2 comments:
That's a timely reminder . . . sometimes we get stressed about the expenses, too. Someone asked us a few weeks ago if we had the rest of the money in the bank. Ha! I'd never paid attention to the "we" before -- thanks for sharing that.
-- Nancy
During my pregnancy with Abbie, the story of Abraham taking Isaac to the mountain was on my mind a lot.
After the diagnosis and the prayers that she would not, indeed, have BWS, I remember praying, "God, no matter how sick she gets, I'll still trust you." But I felt God nudging me and pointing me to this story. I felt God asking me, "Do you trust me even if she dies?" THAT took a bit longer, but I have to say that I did get to that point. In my heart, I felt like God was asking me for the ultimate sacrifice and totally trusting him. (Not sure if this applies to you at all, just sharing.)
I have NO doubt that God is going to provide ALL the expenses for your adoption. #1, HE put the desire to adopt in your hearts and the love for India in your hearts. #2, God provided the money for ALL of our travels with Abbie's birth and surgery... He is no respector of persons and I know you're MUCH more faithful than me/us, so I KNOW He will provide... maybe not early, but exactly on time because He's never late.
Hold on to what He is teaching you now. It's EXACTLY what you need. Love you, friend. :-)
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